the last year of the decade and the last year of my 30s in no particular order
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fall in love, cross the pond 3 (6) times, make 8000 miles across the US, get badly heart-broken
visit belarus for the first time for anyone in my family since the 1930s
re-discover a building in st petersburg with a 300-year history and where accidentally four of my past generations lived in the 20th century
re-connect my family branches 100 years later in detroit, london and other places
dig out from under the ground a family grave in berlin’s jewish cemetery
stretch the family research into the 18th century out of one name dig out a hundred names of ancestors for a friend and a lover who is not either of those any longer
take my dad to italy to celebrate his 75th, walk together in acqua alta, hop on 7 islands in 2 days in no haste
add berlin to my collection of camera & computer robberies in london and havana
lose £1200 from being scammed while looking/paying for a place to stay in london
fly over the handlebars of my bike the morning after the general election
get inspired by sally mann’s “a thousand crossings”, dave heath “dialogues with solitude”, olafur eliasson “in real life” and dora maar’s exhibitions
start asking tough questions when visiting local history, gulag and jewish museums
learn about american civil rights movement
get a remote job
start learning yiddish and italian
live with chronic back pain
make a hand-made book
lose weight unintentionally
learn more about empathy
make plans
fail plans
make new plans
photograph
write
make friends
continue to hope
dream
dream
dream
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title and images from Olafur Eliasson’s 2019 exhibition “In Real Life” at Tate Modern, London